Do you ask yourself this question at all? I sure do. Lately, it's all the time. Mostly it's in a baffled grunt and modified to, "Meliss-ugh! What the hell are you doing?"
My most recent self-assessment occurred in a lounge at school. I was supposed to be studying, but found myself listening to students talk about research and I decided I no longer liked what I was studying and wanted to, yes... you guessed it, change my "major"... again.
The whole teaching thing was a great idea for a few minutes, but here's what happened: Melissa's applied for many jobs since graduating last year. When I say many, I mean over a hundred. I've gone to three interviews, had one phone interview, and received a small handful of e-mails saying I lacked experience. The next logical step would be grad school, right? The application didn't quite process and there I sat staring at yet another year of rejection letters and telling Grandpa the weather forecast and the television channel he's on. I went into a bit of a panic and found the post-bac program and Ta-Da! I had a plan for the fall, but didn't really analyze the long-term. Science? Biology? Hmm...
So, I did a little more exploring. I was only 21 credits away from having a double major in addiction studies. I bet I could get some of those credits waived if I did a little reporting on my Facebook and Barnes and Noble addictions. (As I type right now, I'm at Barnes and Noble with a separate browser open with Facebook feeds popping up. That right there makes me head of the class, right?)
I would say, "Why didn't you look into this earlier?" That would be pointless, though. I was in a get-me-graduated mindset last year. You don't ever question decisions made when you're in that mentality.
So, here I am. At Barnes and Noble. Blogging, on Facebook, and working on my book that I am pretty sure I could self-publish by the end of the year if I just continue along on my 'sabbatical' and re-visit the idea of graduate school.
Maybe now would be a good time to look into psychic readings?