I am what my therapist refers to as an "all-or-nothing" personality type. Apparently, this is not a good thing to be. Well, it can be a good thing sometimes, but definitely not all the time. I've been and "all-or-nothing" dieter and that got me into trouble on many occasions. You can check out my other blog on that. School is another shining example of the "all-or-nothing" life of Melissa McCarthy.
The hardest thing about being this perfectionist all-or-nothing student is time. Not only am I a perfectionist-all-or-nothing, I'm also a procrastinator because I work better under pressure. I had to learn to pick and choose what to put my entire heart into and what to completely blow off. Usually, the classes that I struggled most with were the ones I didn't bother putting effort into. This way, I could focus on the classes I excelled in. With me, it was math and science that held me down, so I put my time and energy into English, Art, Music, History, and anything that didn't involve a calculator.
I don't do anything half-assed. School skipping was certainly no exception. My junior year of high school I decided that if I was going to skip one class, I may as well skip the entire day. That landed me in truancy court, actually. Like I said... I don't do anything half-assed. The judge went easy on me. Probably because instead of wallet chains, I wore a skirt and even cried a little.
The last class I attended was on October 18th. Due to extenuating circumstances that (for now) I cannot blab about, the powers that be are trying to pull a lot of strings to push me out the door quietly. But, maybe this is a sign that I'm not where I'm supposed to be right now.
Last night, I went to The Pump House in La Crosse for a wonderful concert, featuring Clay Riness - a singer/songwriter from the area. It was inspiring. I've been neglecting my guitar far too long and need to get back into songwriter-mode. So, Miss All-or-Nothing not only wants to dive right back into the music, she is going to do some kind of a tour next year. It may just be around Wisconsin, or it may be all the way to Boston and back. Who knows? If I end up losing my ass on this, it will be my entire ass. Remember, I do nothing half-assed.
The photography gig is going well, too. I have four weddings booked for next year already. As sick as some people think this is, I want to get involved with what some refer to as "end of life" photography. It's actually a beautiful thing if done with taste.
Writing is right up there on my list of things to do, too. Maybe a memoir? Actually, I have one started, but I'm working on a novel right now. Sort of. Writing a novel is hard. So is dropping out of college with less than 30 credits to graduation, but if I can do that, I can write a novel, dammit.
(I threw the "dammit" in for added emphasis. Nice, huh?)
If anyone is looking for me, this weekend I will be secluded with the women in my life at craft weekend in Three Lakes, Wisconsin. I will be putting together press kits for my first tour, creating promotional material for my photo business, and learning how to use a sewing machine.
Watch out, World.